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Name: Ken
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 8/8/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: Having fun...procrastination, and other random things that come my way
Expertise: just being me ;) thats a expertise all on its own...hehe
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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AIM:  kenyboy86
Member Since:
5/12/2003
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| So I haven't written in this for a long time.. never any inspiration to just stop my tracks in my life. I've definately stepped back a couple of times and self-evaluated...but haven't just stopped my life in a long time.
I realize there isn't always going to be the second chance to get to know someone. There isn't. I feel like I've been getting things done, by just getting by. Same with some relationships, meeting them but not knowing them. That isn't the Ken I knew just a couple of years ago...and I'm supposed to be grown up now. I love all my close friends in life, since you are the mold that holds me, but to all those of who I've neglected even once, I really don't mean it. I can only be so much I guess. I love when people are proactive to hang out with me, it really just makes my day. Even with 900+ friends on facebook, which i get teased about everyday, I still feel self-conscious calling people: not knowing if we're close enough to hang out independantly, being intimidated by their 'status', and basically just being afraid. This extends to my family. I've probably never had an extended conversation with most of family members. I think it's because I was considered a child for most of my life, and it's just now that I'm growing into my mind. All my relatives live out of state, all in Milwaukee or Japan. Last time I saw any of my relatives was last, last Christmas, and it was by far the most amazing Christmas ever: mountains of snow, hot hot hot chocolate, delicious food, and family. I didn't realize it was going to be the last time I would see or hug my grandpa.
I would of asked him so many more questions if I knew. He lived till he was 93, and it would be hard for me to write a 2 page paper on him right now. That's a effin disgrace considering I could b.s. a I.S. paper in under an hour. I'm so mad at myself for not knowing one of the nicest and most friendly men to walk this earth. It's because of him my dad has the character he has, and why I am the person I am today. I never thought both of my grandparents would be gone, Till this day I feel my grandma is living and breathing, but because of the distance, it's always hard to tell.
I will really miss my grandpa and what I can take from his death is that time is precious. My dad is in his 60's now himself, and that's even more of a trip. I see my dad everytime I go home, but again, I've probably never sat down and just had a man to man with my dad. There's so many things I would ask him...if I only had the courage. I never even thought about my family situation until pledgeship, and yet I still haven't acted upon it. I know my dad is having a hard time right now, but I just want him and my grandpa to know that they are probably the two men I look up to most in my life. My grandpa being so funny, friendly, supportive, and loving...and my dad being probably the most intellegent person I've ever met, including having many of the qualities of my grandpa, and just as I realize that... I really want to raise my kids as they did. I want to be the best father in the world. I want my kids to see me and respect me, and just jump for their passions, knowing that a huge net will be underneath them in case they were to fall.
I just want to say to my family that I respect you so much it's not even funny. Thanks for everything you taught me Louie and may you rest in peace.
Keny
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| Have some time to kill so I've decided to give a quick update in ze xanga.
Spring quarter is here and I'm definately feeling the wear and tear of the year. I'm getting over some things and looking towards the future. My spring quarter is full of training so im super excited about that :) PeerAcademicAdvisor training was fairly exciting, but I realized I'm going to be a lott of memorizing come summer time. ..but because of PAA in the summer I wont be able to go to legends of china :P but i guess that saves money anywho. HA training (IPACS house) is starting next week and im def looking forward to that! I cant wait to do training with some crazy cats!
I've definately realize how spop is. spop love is everywhere mang. This last week I feel like I'm right back in the mist of things, listening to all the behind the scenes ish. Im just getting more excited for this new color of spop to go through and rock the shit out of 06-07. Im really glad I didnt get returner because I now know the commitment that a PAA has. I would much rather comfortably dominate different spop year :) Hopefully a year where sameezie picks ze staff.
Im definately a happy place in my life. I have a girlfriend thats just pure amazing and looking forward to start on our journey together <----cheese. but yes, life is unexpected, unpredictable, and unknowing, so just live it up while you can. I just realized im almost done with my 2nd year. Being in the dorms again makes you oblivious to how fast things get. I have so many things I want to do, but yet im almost halfway done with my college career. What options do i have in the future? I honestly dont want to make decisions just yet.
goodnight,
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| Congrats to all the new SPOP staffers! I'm so happy to hear certain people make it :P I know some of you were haters before, but I know you'll feel the splove by the end. A special congrats to all the returners that got it this year. With so many money people applying I know you guys will dominate ________ year. At first when i didnt get I was disapointed because the possibility of staffing with people like berty and kunal isnt there anymore, but what I grew to realize is that I should be even happy to consider these people my friends. I remember coming through spop and looking up the the sameers, chris cheongs, bertys, kunals, and nobus...and look at my life now. Me and chris get to hang out everyday. Nobu will always be my dad, and two nights ago I hung out with sameer, kunal, berty, and roshan till 5 in the morning laughing till we got tummies hurt and til brooms hit the ceiling. Thats whats Spops about. It has given me so much already and hopefully even more in the future.
onelove,
keny | | |
| seems like everything thats happening in my life is so real:
a simple foglight ruining my favorite Motion City Song.
a blow out tire sale is funny when on a sign, but not when it ruins my countdown.
a warrior dying for absolutely no reason.
understanding the life of one of my closest friends, and why he never told us.
car accidents, tickets, and other popo obscenities.
partcipating in my first march.
finding a little more about myself everyday.
noticing who my real friends are.
i finally found my dime and life can't be sweeter.
I have a feeling this is going to be one hellofa year.
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| I'm pretty much ranting about life sooo you can read if youre bored.
Wow, i have clearly neglected this thing....2 and a half months o man. I dont know what was happening then, but I know for sure that I'm a different person. I'm kinda over SPOP now...finally. haha. I realized that I can never have that same high ever again. Even if I were to get returner, I know it'll be completely different. I am, however, greatful for the people I have met along the way. I'm confident that nights at the TT place will continue. Touching with rayray will never get old. Being stupid with lawlaw will always get funnier. And once mother effing berty gets back, I will rape him.
Yup...i'm at a weird place right now. I feel stretched. I feel like it's me against the world sometimes. I know theres a grip of groups that are always there for me, but it seems like I can never just settle down and hang out. I always have to be jumping between hanging out with dorm kids, my pod kids, mesa staffers, my platinum babies, my spopers, cross interns, friends back home, or whoever. I want to hang out with everyone but in turn I think I just dissapoint people. I hate empty promises or being flakey, but it seems when priorities are set, plans don't carry through a lot of the times.
I kinda want someone to come home to. To cuddle with. To wake up next to. Talk till 5 in the morning. But honestly, I cant handle it. I'm too busy. I don't think I've had a steady relationship since Susan! It's scary to think that my last long relationship was almost 4 years ago! Boo.. I always compare. Always find something wrong with the person, so I don't have to give them my heart. I'm scared that I'm always gonna do this. I always tell myself to wait for "a dime, thats top of the line." hahaha but seriously, what if that dime never shows up? I mean a girl doesnt need a "cute face, little waist, with a big behind" to be a "dime," right? Yah.. take that Yin Yang Twins!
Next subject: School! I seriously should not be getting B's this quarter. But, my lack of motivation has taken control. I find myself often studying less just so i can get at least 5-6 hours of sleep. I know its bad, but I have seriously cut down on everything. I dont watch TV, I dont got on AIM, I've pretty much stop using Xanga, and yet I still dont get everything done. I'm only taking 13 units which is super easy, but next quarter I should try to up it to 17 :P I cant fall behind man!
I guess this entry should be dedicated to people I've been neglecting lately. Just know that I still love you guys and I still think about you.
ok.. so winter break plans
Dec. 21-24th Mammoth with the old crew!
Dec 25-31st Milwaukee with my fam to visit fam! I love snow, xmas time, and family!
Ok super long entry, but standard lines by dash is an amazing song! Learned it on my guitar and its so fun to play! haha
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